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Post by 山猫 on Nov 18, 2018 6:28:50 GMT -5
Everyone, who ever you may be, whatever you are doing right now, stop that and just take a deep look at y'selves. Specifically, ask y'self, do you feel like you have stayed much too far from your natural temperament? Do you feel like there is a force possessing you? Maybe a slick and sneaky demon running on you or through you in some way? Also, find messages of your past self if you can. See if there's anything lost or concerning.
I make this message because I feel that slowly over time, such dangerous forces have swelled up and have been taking over some things, things they shouldn't be messing with but are because they can and don't care about you personally. All I'm sayin is. Just do be aware of y'selves and what may be influencing you.
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Post by amber on Nov 22, 2018 0:44:59 GMT -5
I feel that I am more susceptible to influence when I am in pain. And sometimes I am scared of being influenced but I also like to be in pain sometimes because being in pain makes me sad which gives me pleasure. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve to have what I have and that I just need to suffer and undergo pain and sometimes this makes me happy. Does that make me susceptible to influence and affect me personally? I don't know.
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Post by hisperic on Nov 22, 2018 0:49:59 GMT -5
Why don't you feel that you deserve what you have?
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Post by amber on Nov 22, 2018 1:04:24 GMT -5
Everything that I have in life was given to me by a specific person and I don't even really like them so much. I am thankful but also get scared sometimes. They are the opposite of me. They are simple complex simple and I am complex simple complex. As I type this, the figurehead of this person, glued onto the mast of this person, glares at me. It is my idol but I hate my idol. The symbols, etched into the walls, taunt me. I am lonely and need a community to be with to provide me with mental and emotional support. That's why I'm here. I like prickly, spikey things. They are my major influence. I like licking them and seeing my saliva drip off of them. I like sharp, shiny things, with curvy pricks. I like pressing my skin against sticks and pricks. They are so porcupiney. My skin pulls taut when pressed hard against a spike. A prick to bring me to the brink of puncture. I like to graze my hand over prickly things. I don't want to see blood, that's when I get sad. That's when I dissolve into tears. I don't mind seeing other's blood but I don't like to seen my own blood. I like to move my hand over sharp pricks and return at a point before the brink. I like to graze and return, press and graze and return. Also I'm literally crazy and I don't even know what I'm typing anymore. Anyway. I know about this apple house stuff you were talking about and how they might be possessing people and making them stand with their heels at a ninety degree angle and what not. Well I don't mind them becoming deconcentrated and whatever they are these days. As long as they respect the free will of living beings I have no problem with them. I don't think that people deserve to be possessed by anyone. I think that people should be themselves and that they should not be other people, because other people are other people and they are them. |
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Post by hisperic on Nov 22, 2018 1:05:38 GMT -5
Ok. Do you ever think that maybe you are building up too many barriers between yourself and other people?
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Post by amber on Nov 22, 2018 1:08:20 GMT -5
You know maybe that is the case. Maybe I shouldn't hate people so much for being who they are. But the fact is that I am not them and they are not me. So I feel like there should always be an element of hate involved. And I find it easier to think about hate than about any other emotion for some reason.
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