Post by amber on Apr 28, 2018 1:52:46 GMT -5
what's on my mind?
unsure of what's on my mind
i have a pet who is afraid to feel vulnerable, but shee tells me that there are no windows in her garden, so she can't see outside, or atleast if she tries then everything is fuzzy. i told her that it is ok to feel that way but she did not believe me and she is so crazy all the time. like once she said "if i am telling a story then i will use ornamentation in simple and complex forms because i hate being normal and conventional". i try to roleplay as someone who is very susceptible in front of her so she gets the message that it is ok but she never gets it she just thinks i am weird or gets aggressive. it's actually just an inverted chasm out her window there which seeps images and each time the image is randomized so you just get new images every day, and sometimes even images of images. i actually have a hypercube which allows me to interact with the image world in a treelike fashion. i have two choices and then i have four choices and et cetera for the remaining parameters. i have a pet who lives there and is afraid to feel vulnerable and always puts up fronts or walls in front of herself because shee wants to be tough and i say yes it is good to be tough but sometimes its also ok to be susceptible but she doesn't believe me. i tell her focus, focus, focus on the landforms which move slowly over millions and billions of years, because they remember everything that happens atop them and within them are compressed all the information and biometrics. where are the escapes into nothingland free the escapism my saturation is unending for you for us for me the sand recedes and you know i am speaking here to the landforms and i know they are listening and you humans have loved each other and been disgusted by each other for many years but i am here for yours salvation and to help you feel vulnerable and break down your walls and your flaky thin meanings for love and for entropy.
so one day i came up with a strategy to get my pet to not be afraid to feel vulnerable, even pinned a to-do list on my desk so i wouldn't forget since i'm a multitasker. i said to her, "this is beause the fluid flows in my garment with my garment in step with the bridge outside your window which leads to the opposite end but you'll go there when you are ready to feel vulnerable". but shee tells me that there are no windows in her garden, so she can't see outside, and sometimes she looks through potholes but they are very small and everything is blurry and looks like it has triple rotating eyes looking at her and she gets scared and runs away and pretends to be tough again. i told her that it is ok to feel scared or susceptible but the garment is compressed on the bridge and it is very fashionable. she said she does not believe me. well, i said, maybe you should ask the garment. she said ok i'll go ask the garment is it on the bridge? i said yeah. so she descended into the pothole and went into the alien world. later she told me that it was like descending into warm water which looked like an ocean because there were many clams there chomping open and closed. some of them had gems in them. one of them had a crescent moon inside. there was also a jellyfish with two tentacles floating about. she asked the jellyfish where the bridge with the garment was and the jelly said, "when you're in the ocean, fixated on a timepoint, the toroidal component exits the rightleftleftright-crossed function in sync with a lopsided rhythm which is determined by a state equivalent to either "1", "2", or "3" and you must obtain the skeleton key to encode and decode the state codes. listen to me i am the hand of guidance i show the way my will is transmitted unto you do not oppose the guidance hand" her eyes fluttered and she said ok i will try and then she fainted but when she woke up she was lying on a bed in an emergency room and an inscription on the ceiling said "XLDN" which she knew stood for xenon leggings dimorphic nickname.
what happened was after she saw the inscription she left the hospital and made her way to the bridge as per the instructions of the jellyfish. there is a machine there that can store within itself numbers "1" "2" or "3". it analyzed her from head to toe and decided to store a "2" within itself and a garment appeared on the bridge for her to talk to. she said to the garment do you know about xenon leggings dimorphic nickname but the garment said no but i know that entropy will be altered as spokes on a wheel rotate simultaneously with the subtle movement of your knee when you are bored and not sure what to say and outside formulaic conventionality there will be a new earth and a new garden and a new nature which you will learn to live in. anyway in the end my pet learned that its ok to feel vulnerable and to be vulnerable in your expression and personality with the world. she said i am thankful that i had learned this lesson because otherwise i would have been pretending to be tough all the time and that is just a fake personality. well what is the difference between fake and real i asked i don't really know she said, but i am glad i have something that i can say "this is real" that i can latch onto, she said. it's as if if i can say something it is good but if i can't really say something it is bad. but i know that i can be both vulnerable when i need to be and tough when i need to be and that is good. and i told her yes that's good for u and i can go back to sleep.
unsure of what's on my mind
i have a pet who is afraid to feel vulnerable, but shee tells me that there are no windows in her garden, so she can't see outside, or atleast if she tries then everything is fuzzy. i told her that it is ok to feel that way but she did not believe me and she is so crazy all the time. like once she said "if i am telling a story then i will use ornamentation in simple and complex forms because i hate being normal and conventional". i try to roleplay as someone who is very susceptible in front of her so she gets the message that it is ok but she never gets it she just thinks i am weird or gets aggressive. it's actually just an inverted chasm out her window there which seeps images and each time the image is randomized so you just get new images every day, and sometimes even images of images. i actually have a hypercube which allows me to interact with the image world in a treelike fashion. i have two choices and then i have four choices and et cetera for the remaining parameters. i have a pet who lives there and is afraid to feel vulnerable and always puts up fronts or walls in front of herself because shee wants to be tough and i say yes it is good to be tough but sometimes its also ok to be susceptible but she doesn't believe me. i tell her focus, focus, focus on the landforms which move slowly over millions and billions of years, because they remember everything that happens atop them and within them are compressed all the information and biometrics. where are the escapes into nothingland free the escapism my saturation is unending for you for us for me the sand recedes and you know i am speaking here to the landforms and i know they are listening and you humans have loved each other and been disgusted by each other for many years but i am here for yours salvation and to help you feel vulnerable and break down your walls and your flaky thin meanings for love and for entropy.
so one day i came up with a strategy to get my pet to not be afraid to feel vulnerable, even pinned a to-do list on my desk so i wouldn't forget since i'm a multitasker. i said to her, "this is beause the fluid flows in my garment with my garment in step with the bridge outside your window which leads to the opposite end but you'll go there when you are ready to feel vulnerable". but shee tells me that there are no windows in her garden, so she can't see outside, and sometimes she looks through potholes but they are very small and everything is blurry and looks like it has triple rotating eyes looking at her and she gets scared and runs away and pretends to be tough again. i told her that it is ok to feel scared or susceptible but the garment is compressed on the bridge and it is very fashionable. she said she does not believe me. well, i said, maybe you should ask the garment. she said ok i'll go ask the garment is it on the bridge? i said yeah. so she descended into the pothole and went into the alien world. later she told me that it was like descending into warm water which looked like an ocean because there were many clams there chomping open and closed. some of them had gems in them. one of them had a crescent moon inside. there was also a jellyfish with two tentacles floating about. she asked the jellyfish where the bridge with the garment was and the jelly said, "when you're in the ocean, fixated on a timepoint, the toroidal component exits the rightleftleftright-crossed function in sync with a lopsided rhythm which is determined by a state equivalent to either "1", "2", or "3" and you must obtain the skeleton key to encode and decode the state codes. listen to me i am the hand of guidance i show the way my will is transmitted unto you do not oppose the guidance hand" her eyes fluttered and she said ok i will try and then she fainted but when she woke up she was lying on a bed in an emergency room and an inscription on the ceiling said "XLDN" which she knew stood for xenon leggings dimorphic nickname.
what happened was after she saw the inscription she left the hospital and made her way to the bridge as per the instructions of the jellyfish. there is a machine there that can store within itself numbers "1" "2" or "3". it analyzed her from head to toe and decided to store a "2" within itself and a garment appeared on the bridge for her to talk to. she said to the garment do you know about xenon leggings dimorphic nickname but the garment said no but i know that entropy will be altered as spokes on a wheel rotate simultaneously with the subtle movement of your knee when you are bored and not sure what to say and outside formulaic conventionality there will be a new earth and a new garden and a new nature which you will learn to live in. anyway in the end my pet learned that its ok to feel vulnerable and to be vulnerable in your expression and personality with the world. she said i am thankful that i had learned this lesson because otherwise i would have been pretending to be tough all the time and that is just a fake personality. well what is the difference between fake and real i asked i don't really know she said, but i am glad i have something that i can say "this is real" that i can latch onto, she said. it's as if if i can say something it is good but if i can't really say something it is bad. but i know that i can be both vulnerable when i need to be and tough when i need to be and that is good. and i told her yes that's good for u and i can go back to sleep.
